I want to let others know there is hope from the pit of despair which is where I came from. My name is Vicki, 34 yrs old, married for 10 years, with 2 children. I am a Radiological Technologist, but currently I am a domestic goddess. My husband and I have 2 beautiful children, a son (19 yrs) and a daughter (6 yrs).
My story begins 6 years ago after giving birth. I experienced the “baby blues” immediately after coming home from the hospital. My symptoms progressed into depression, crying for no reason, and sadness that came from nowhere. About 3 months after giving birth I was diagnosed with postpartum depression and was placed on medication.
By this time, I was unable to take care of anything. The only physical contact I had with my baby was while breastfeeding and taking naps with her. My mom came to live with us to help my husband and I take care of our baby and myself. I was unable to be left alone never knowing what I might do, or if I would take off and drive off a cliff. I was in my own “nightmare,” a colorless, dark world. I was always afraid, terrified of “something or someone” behind me trying to get me. My mom or husband had to come help me off the couch to go to the bathroom, and they had to put me to bed every night. The fear crippled me.
About 6 months after delivery, I was diagnosed with severe postpartum psychosis. I had lost touch with reality. My family was in their own nightmare having to watch me being swallowed up and consumed by the depression, but they never left my side no matter how out of control I became.
In the past 6 years, I have been hospitalized 3 times, undergone ECT (electro-convulsive therapy) treatments, mutilated myself with knives, my nails, or anything sharp I could get my hands on, had suicidal thoughts daily, attempted suicide, and lost touch with everything in my life. And I was a woman who, prior to this point in my life, had never experienced any mental problems or issues. At this point, I was in the blackest, deepest hole I could have ever imagined and I just wanted my pain, not to mention my family’s pain, to end.
In May of 2006, my sister-in-law, Kimberly, found the Truehope web site and asked me to read about it. I did, but did not think it was for me. In July, she had 3 bottles sent to me to try. I never imagined that it would help me, but I tried it anyway, for her, because she was so persistent. Within 1 month I noticed a difference in my thinking and how I felt. I was off all my medications by October (I was taking 6 to 7 meds a day). I have now been taking the vitamins for about 9 months, and I feel awesome.
The second best thing that could happen to me, besides Truehope, is to know that my story could help someone that is going through what I went through. I wish I could have found out about this sooner. Please don’t waste any more valuable time, like I did, thinking this will not work for you, because, trust me, it does. And, the best part is, I am able to take care of my family and myself. I love to cook and experiment with recipes again. That is such an enjoyment for me. My little girl is my best friend. I missed out on so much, and I now treasure our moments together. I am enjoying life, my life, and the people in it once again
Truehope is amazing! It is hope for someone who doesn’t see color, light, or hope in their lives. Truehope gave me back the ability to see the color in my life. Thank you!
Vicki